Breaking up

Sometimes I crave the break up process. I long for it, miss it even. I find it as beautiful as the process of falling in love. The perfect equal balance and match. Falling in love feels like your heart is being sewed back together, fulfilling it. Breaking up feels like your heart is being ripped right open. Cracking, breaking, opening your sensitive organ up to brand new wounds. But outward flows new and limitless possibilities.

You are starting over. You have to redefine and create a new path for yourself. You no longer have someone telling you how to feel and how to perceive the world around you and about yourself. You get to make that decision on your own now. Recognize what you want to do, what you believe in, where you want to go. You get the chance to come back to yourself. Rebuild that connection and relationship to yourself that was long forgotten or lost. What makes you uniquely you.

You get to choose and listen to your heart. It’s easy to listen to your heart when it is bleeding and in pain. When emotion is so prevalent and real. With no idea where to go or what to do, the only thing you can do is surrender. Submit to the universal life flow and accept that you don’t know what to do in this moment, and that is okay, because with each passing moment you’ll rebuild and regain back your strength and trust.

When you have nothing left to lose, when you are depleted. You are honest, genuine, transparent with how you are and how you feel. There is no hiding, because there is no place worse to go. You’re already at the bottom, and that is okay. There is no fear holding you back anymore.

You have limitless possibilities and avenues to go now. You are restarting fresh and brand new. No one is holding you to a certain standard anymore. You have the chance to set your own standard now. You have the freedom, time, and space to try the things you’ve always wanted to but haven’t gotten around to do.

The hurt, the pain, the breaking, is all a part of the process. All what helps to create and make you who you are. It it the unmolding and undoing that rebuilds a sturdier foundation and structure then before. And you are the architect now. You decide how your life goes, no one else. You have the power to create the reality you want to. No one is stopping you now.