Heartache

You will have good days,

and you'll have bad days

But most importantly

they will be your own

And they will be real

~ the process of healing

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for being one without a soul to understand me

i found your differences alluring

i believed your darkness contained so much light

that craved a push to shine through

i somehow knew being with you would in some way destroy myself

but I couldn't help break from the magnetic force of you

to entangle with you and in part lose some of myself

when all I wanted to do was give you all my heart

i desired to show you love and kindness to make your worth grow

but instead you wrecked and damaged me more than you'll know

your darkness seeped over my light

and my sun couldn't overtake your night

i pulled away hurt and confused

that someone I loved could only project their blues

but I believed this would be different

turns out you can't change a person's self image

no matter how much I wanted to or try

i was over the moon until you left and I started to cry

and the flood of tears didn't just stop at goodbye

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She has brown eyes

that never told me lies

She was like sunshine

and I was like the rain

She warmed up the city

as I played the train

Wrecking her unintentionally

With us ending unexpectedly...

I never meant to hurt her.

she believed in us when I knew we were

no longer the same, we had outgrown

and it was difficult to admit what was innately known

she said she would love me until the end of time

but who knows when nothing is truly ever mine?

i have learned to heal before I choose to love

and now I appreciate everything she has taught me of

i can’t go back because what we were will never be again

but I know in the next lifetime we will forever meet again

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