How I want to fall in love

I need to be captivated by love.

Once you experience true deep connection and love, it’s hard to settle for anything less. And why would you want to? Why would you want to settle in a mediocre relationship that doesn’t challenge you, push you, allows you to grow? Someone you learn from and explore life together with.

I desire to be with someone who makes me feel alive. That I am truly living life to the fullest with and not just surviving. I want someone to bring out the best in me and not make me believe that what I’m doing is just enough. That there is always room for improvement, for growth, to love life even deeper than before.

I need someone of equal intelligence and outgoing characteristics so we’ll never get bored. That all my goals aren’t complete and there are better things to look forward to.

I want someone I can connect with on a different level, on a spiritual level. When we talk, we both have the same amount of input and different perspectives on these out-of-this-world concepts, yet we can still understand each other. I want to learn from you. I want to hear all your crazy thoughts and dreams and not you just reciprocating me.

I want someone who loves to explore life and be outside, there’s so much out there to do and see! There’s so many people I would love to get to know, so many beautiful souls I aspire to understand and learn from. Friends to meet and souls to keep in our lives. I love life. It’s beautiful and there’s always something more to do with this gift.

I know I can only meet someone as much as I’ve met myself, and I need someone who as met themselves. I need someone who knows themself, understands themself, loves themself so I won’t have to fill those voids for them. I need a companion, an equal partner, not a project. I need another independent. I do not want you dependent on me for your own happiness.

Maybe I’m asking for too much, or maybe I just won’t allow myself to settle for anything less than what I desire and deserve. I need to feel in love, and not just an assumed emotion I’m supposed to have when I’m with someone for a period of time. And I can’t wait to feel that passionate flame inside me again when I look into the eyes of someone I love. I can’t wait to truly fall deeply in love with someone again and I refuse to settle until then.

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